Is it Just Me??

Lets talk about porn, shall we? Now, I know for a fact that my husband enjoys porn, because a)Hes a man and b)Hes a man. I have NO PROBLEMS with that at all! I must say that I too enjoy porn. Is that really so odd? My girlfriends cringe at the mere thought of such things, I get...excited. Now, I know that its routine for men to watch XXX videos when they want some self lovin', but is that its sole purpose to men? Wouldn't it be equally if not more enjoyable to watch it with their wife or girlfriend and get all hot and bothered and then top it all off with super hot sex? I would think so, but tell me if I'm wrong. I have bought Rick porn, and we have watched a few together, but 99% of the time he chooses to be sneaky about it. Why? He does the same thing with internet porn. Again, why? If the sole purpose is to get off quickly, then why can't he watch the porn, or flip through the internet pictures while I, say, give him a blow job? Let us both enjoy it! I wouldn't expect anything in return. I get off just knowing hes enjoying himself. I guess really, what I'm saying is that I want him to get all things sexual, be it actaul fucking or even just a hand job, from me and me alone. Thats just silly and unrealistic. How can I say I'm jealous of my husband's hand? lol *sigh* But, then too, I'm partly judging this by all the blogs I read from frustrated husbands who masturbate as a last resort. I guess I assumed that since Rick is not in that position that he shouldn't have the need to masturbate. Perhaps I'm just a sex addict. I never thought I'd be more into sex than Rick. Hmmm...