Sexless

I have been blown off more times than I care to count in the last two weeks when trying to get intimate with Rick. This has had me porn surfing and masturbating like a highschool boy, nearing obsession.

Last night I was blown off all evening, until Rick decided he finally could spare me a minute of his precious time for a quickie......but I was not interested and nothing happened.

I was/am mad and I let that push him away. And I didn't/don't care.