Proceeding with caution
It is undeniably funny that now that Rick and I have decided to start trying for a second baby, I have suddenly gotten shy about sex. Well, not shy, thats not the word I was looking for. I guess I've become suddenly aware of the sheer amount of sex we have, and am desperatly trying to make sure that I don't bore Rick to death with it.
This isn't coming out right. Can you feel my frustration? lol Perhaps a short conception lesson would make my point more clear.
Stating the obvious here, but there is an extremely short window of opportunity each month to get pregnant. The sperm has to be ready and waiting for the egg to make her ever so brief appearance before she disappears, never to be seen again. That being said, when you know when you are due to ovulate, there is a mad rush to have sex as much as possible, increasing the chances of baby making.
I am a very impatient person, in case you couldn't tell, and so upon the decision to start for baby #2, I wanted to be pregnant immediatly. Thats unrealistic, really. But it doesn't mean that I'm not trying. This is why I'm afraid I'll bore Rick of sex. I know what days we are supposed to have sex, and though we may have had sex that night anyway, I tend to feel as though I'm forcing him, or that I'm making sex a chore. Thats not to say that Rick is acting bored. In fact, we have had some extremely intense love making sessions as of late. I suppose insecurities have to show their ugly heads somewhere.
Its stupid, really.
Gosh, I had forgotten how different sex is without Rick withdrawing to come. Its so much more bonding and intimate this way, not to mention the entirely different sensations. Thank God for baby making! lol
I can't help but think that this is a bad time for me to approach Rick about the whole domination thing. I'm not sure how he would feel saying the dirty things I love to hear, or doing the naughty things I love to do while I am with child. Does that make sense? Maybe I'm over thinking it, or maybe I'm just thinking of excuses not to have to have the talk. Things that make you go "Hmmmmm".